Thursday, October 27, 2011

~ Harmony Thoughts ~

~ ღ ~ Music is an agreeable harmony for the honor of God and the permissible delights of the soul. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Johann Sebastian Bach ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Perfect harmony of body and mind are my key to personal balance and happiness. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Gabriela Sabatini ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony ~ ღ
ღ ~ Mahatma Gandhi ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well ~ ღ
ღ ~ Mahatma Gandhi ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ The way of the Creative works through change and transformation, so that each thing receives its true nature and destiny and comes into permanent accord with the Great Harmony: this is what furthers and what perseveres ~ ღ
ღ ~ Alexander Pope ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ We shall never achieve harmony with land, any more than we shall achieve absolute justice or liberty for people. In these higher aspirations, the important thing is not to achieve but to strive ~ ღ
ღ ~ Aldo Leopold ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Beauty of style and harmony and grace and good rhythm depend on simplicity. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Plato ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ There is music wherever there is harmony, order, or proportion ~ ღ
ღ ~ Thomas Browne ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ There is a harmony in autumn, and a luster in its sky, which through the summer is not heard or seen, as if it could not be, as if it had not been! ~ ღ
ღ ~ Percy Bysshe Shelley ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Observe good faith and justice toward all nations. Cultivate peace and harmony with all. ~ ღ
ღ ~ George Washington ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ In the anxiety to get beautiful colour harmony do not exhaust all combinations on one canvas. ~ ღ
ღ ~ John F. Carlson ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ The unlike is joined together, and from differences results the most beautiful harmony. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Heraclitus ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Happiness is not a matter of intensity but of balance and order and rhythm and harmony. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Thomas Merton ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Life’s errors cry for the merciful beauty that can modulate their isolation into a harmony with the whole ~ ღ
ღ ~ Sir Rabindranath Tagore ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Three Rules of Work: Out of clutter find simplicity; From discord find harmony; In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Albert Einstein ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ One must marry one’s feelings to one’s beliefs and ideas. That is probably the only way to achieve a measure of harmony in one’s life ~ ღ
ღ ~ Napoleon Hill ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Wandering re-establishes the original harmony which once existed between man and the universe ~ ღ
ღ ~ Anatole France ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Harmony is pure love, for love is a concerto ~ ღ
ღ ~ Lope de Vega ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Opposition brings concord. Out of discord comes the fairest harmony. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Heraclitus of Ephesus ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ You don’t get harmony when everybody sings the same note ~ ღ
ღ ~ Doug Floyd ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ But what is happiness except the simple harmony between a man and the life he leads? ~ ღ
ღ ~ Albert Camus ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Oh I do want that thing, that oneness of movement that will catch the thing up into one movement and sing – harmony of life. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Emily Carr ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ To seek, beneath the universal strife, the hidden harmony of things. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Will Durant ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ I want to bring my viewers to the harmony trail. When the viewer comes to see, they feel harmony. ~ ღ
ღ ~ Ming Leunq ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ Harmony seldom makes a headline ~ ღ
ღ ~ Silas Bent ~ ღ

~ ღ ~ With Love ~ ღ ~ Peace ~ ღ ~ Harmony ~ ღ ~ Friendship ~ ღ ~ To ~ ღ ~ ALL ~ ღ ~ Just Me ~ ღ ~ Mary ~ ღ Xo

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Friday, October 14, 2011

~ Clarity ~

~ John Mayer didn’t come into my life until the Night of Oct. 25th, 2005 ~ I have done many things to myself & My Family ~ Things that I am not very proud of ~ This all started when I meet a guy named ( RO ) – June – 1999 – I started to work for the Restaurant – He worked there – Plus I was still Parting at this point in my life – ( Don’t you think I would have learned my lesson yet? ) – Age at the time ( 39 ) – About to go into my forties – Oh My – I just had to have last fling with drugs didn’t I – ( RO ) & I started on just “Pot & Beer” – What it turned into was very wrong & not right – I would forget about my Family – Think about work and the Party after work – All I wanted was Pot and Beer – Who cares how we got it – We did – One of (RO) friends had some Cocaine – That was it – One snort of that I was ready for anything – I wouldn’t come home at night – I didn’t take care of my Family for about 3 years – All I did was Coke & Pot & Drink – ( RO ) & I went into business with the Coke Dealer – As Much as I would sell – I would back in my personal Coke – I had so much Coke in my house – I had cases of beer in my basement – God forbid we ran out of beer – Oh God No Way – We also had a keg account for our huge ass parties we had on the Weekends – It was like a business – We would change people to party with us – It worked out get great – We were making money to party with – Lol – Sorry – ( Thinking back WTF was thinking – Nothing that was the problem ) – I got so hooked on Coke that I started to do Coke by myself – ( Not Good By The Way ) – That is when you know you have a problem – Stopped Drinking: Feb 19th, 2005 -June 2005 – I got rid of ( RO ) – He thought I was his personal banker – Like does it say “Bank” on my fore head ? – He wanted to borrow 130.00 for Coke for him – I said ” Get The Fuck Out of My House” – I was done – Still have my own Coke – Lmao – Changed my phone number – Changed the locks on my doors – I was still parties – But I was at home now – Clean from Beer & Alcohol for about 4 months now – My head was clearing in a way – I kept smoking pot and doing Coke by myself – I did this for about 4 more months – I could feel my life leaving me in a way – I started to look Coke Grey – Like Death – Not good at all – I had stop eating completely – The Coke was so starting to mess with my teeth at the point of my life – The coke was also make my nose not work right – I have problems sleeping at this time – ( Night Owl all ready ) – This just made it worst – I started to miss my period cycle – Everything for me was going South Under My Families noses – Oct. 24th , 2005 – I get my LAST coke I ever bought – My day was very normal for me – ( But I felt something coming my way in my heart ) – I party all night by myself – I got to bed around 9am – I get up to make Dinner for my Family – I go to the Basement to Party while they eat – I go take a bath – Smoke some pot in the Tub – Why not – Lol – So everybody goes to bed – I have the whole Living Room to myself – Yay – I have Direct TV at the time – They have a Channel on the called the 101 – ( Like me ) Lol – Sitting on the floor with my mirror full of “Cocaine” And a bunch of Weed next to me – I was ready for the whole night – I was flipping channels around – Came across this very cute guys – Lol – He was also singing – ( Music ) – He was so good – My heart & soul woke up – Said to myself – We have to find out who this is – Finally his name came up – **John Mayer Trio** – I was fucking hooked – ( asked my Son years before Who John Mayer was: His answer: You don’t need to know about stinkin’ John Mayer .. Lol ) – Then the song I guess my heart was waiting for – *** TRY*** – John Mayer Trio – My Heart & Soul woke up like crazy then – Still sitting there doing drugs BTW – I kept listening and listening – He was right – I had to TRY to get off drugs – Then my cell phone rang – I was going “Who In The Fuck Is Call Me On My Cell Phone” – Getting into The Mayer – Lol – I answered it – Good Thing I Did – My best Friend from “High School” For Real – *JFC* – He said he had a feeling I was in trouble somehow – I said he had tried my old number – Did not work – (wonder why? Lol ) – He said he had my cell phone number – Good Thing – He asked the question I kinda knew was coming – Are you okay – And he said he Loved me – ( Crying – Remembering ) – That was it – I could never hide anything from since the 9th grade – So I starting crying – He knew – He said he could feel me – Also had a bad dream about me the night before – He had to call me – I gave him my home number – He called right back – He asked a Q – He asked what kinda of drug I was on – I told him – OMG – Like he torn me a new ass hole that night – Made me cry so hard – He told me about his problem back in the 80′s – Told me this was not going to be easy – But: if I wanted him back in my life – I had to get clean – Between *JFC* & *JM* I was getting it two ways – *JFC* – yelling at me over the phone ( in a loving way by the way ) *JM* – His lyrics and Guitar playing was it – John Mayer is something – When I looked at him on that TV screen – It felt like he was talking to me- Like “Mary get your shit together or die” – I was still on the phone with *JFC* – He asked me if I was going to quit everything – I said yes – He said he would call me after School tomorrow to check on me – I told him I was off the drugs for good – He was pleased with that – He told me going cold Turkey wasn’t going to be easy – ( He is right by the way ) – He told me ” I LOVE YOU MARY” – He is not lying – I could feel it though the phone – We said good night – Xo – I didn’t stop parting – I had My Best Friend back & John Mayer – What Could a Girl Ever Want – I was in heaven – So I just had to party one more time – I did all of my Coke that night – I went and got all of my letters from *JFC* and read them all – And cried my eyes out for hours – How could I have been so stupid to let one drug take me over like that – The next day I put everything down – EVERYTHING – No more party for Mary – The craving were so bad – I felt like a cat on a hot tin roof – I looked like a damn ghost – I couldn’t sleep right – Eating forget about it – Forgot how – **JFC* called me like he said he would – ( BTW: My Family & I had a meeting about this – They were all very happy about this – The Mayer on the other hand – Lol – Secret – If I want private time in my Living Room – All I have to do is put some Mayer on – Poof they leave – Lol – ) – I got off drugs for Love – Love to Love my Family the way I suppose too – Love is all we all need – Sometimes we forget that – It is out there – Just have to find it sometimes – Mine came in the form of Music & Old Friend – ( BTW: **JFC** shares something special with my dad — Same birthday’s ) – I own a lot to Music & Love – *JFC** & Mr. John Clayton Mayer – I own you my life — So I ***TRY*** everyday now – CLEAN FROM DRINKING: Feb. 19th, 2005 — CLEAN FROM COCAINE: Oct. 25th, 2005 — So if you are on blip with me and see me blip **TRY*** – I am just remembering promises I made to myself and my Family 1st – Friend and The Mayer 2nd – ***Love , Peace, Harmony To ALL – until next time friends – Mary – Xo

~ Me And The Mayer ~

~ I sit here in Cleveland listening to John Mayer – John was born on Oct. 16th , 1977 – In Bridgeport, CT( 83 ) – His parents work for the School District there – John was 3 Brothers – Carl – Oldest – John – Middle Child ( Should tell you something? ) – Ben – The Youngest ( Like me ) – We almost lost John in his 18th year – He was a Heart Condition which he takes medication for everyday – I think about him not being here – We would not have him & his lyrics – Who would have saved me that night? – We would have be “Perfectly Lonely” without him – It would have been “Heart Break Warfare” With Out The Mayer -”Something Would Have Missing” If he was not in The World – How could I have gained my “Clarity” without him – I had to reach for some “Gravity” that night – So Me And The Mayer become “Friends,Lovers,Or Nothing” – I wanted to be “Comfortable” in my new life without drugs – So I had to come up with some “Belief” to make this work – I am still “Waiting for The World To Change” – John Mayer is “Good Love On The Way” & “Bold As Love” all rolled together – So I “Say” let’s stay off drugs so I can have my Family & *JFC* in my life – I was “Not Myself” on drugs – I was like “Neon” all of the time – I had a lot of “Split Screen Sadness” going on – So I had to be “Bigger Than My Body” to overcome – It took a lot of “City Love” to get better from drugs – A “New Deep” was coming in my life – The craving for cocaine was like the “Edge Of Desire” – I had to stay on “Route 66″ to stay clean – I was in the “War Of My Life” with these craving – It felt like I have “Vultures” all over me all of the time – I was going “Out Of My Mind” all of the time – I kept asking myself “Who Did You Think I Was” getting hook on this Drug – The “Another Kind Of Green” wasn’t making me happy – I had my “Home Life” & “Daughters” back in my life – I sent a lot of “3×5″ ‘s to *JFC* – He would say “Your Body is a Wonderland” so keep it clean – My Family & *JFC* had my “Only Heart” – None of this “Half of My Heart” anymore – I was still “In Repair” – I was “Slow Dancing In A Burning Room” inside – Keep asking myself “Why Georgia” – The Answer “My Stupid Mouth” got me into all of this – I would cry so much felt like “Covered In Rain” – So I said to myself “Stop This Train” – All I had to do is “Try” everyday of my life – Because we have to “Wait Until Tomorrow” – So “Do You Know Me” by now – ( I am The Best John Mayer Fan On Blip.fm – I am very proud of that – He saved my life – Gave Me a New Life With His Lyrics And Him Just being Him – I * L ♥ V E * Y O U * A L W A Y S * A N D * F O R V E R * Y O U R * F A N * O H I O * M a r y – That is me – No more “Dreaming With A Broken Heart” Anymore – I have you – John C. Mayer ♥